AwesometotheSauce

“Understanding you.

Understanding me.

Sometimes,

the former may overpower the latter.

Sometimes,

the latter may overpower the latter.

But that’s how it works.

Given the chance to learn this.

Learn us.

And If I were given the chance to actually learn you,

In a heartbeat,

I’d take it.

In a heartbeat, 

I would.”

You turn me into,

somebody loved. 

It starts now. 

Everything.

You,

I,

Now. 

“If it inspires you, fine.

just make sure you are not playing around.

Do not play with your heart, son.”

I think this part.

This confusion-laden part.

is deemed to be hardest.

Whatever.

It’s worth it. 

Okay. 
I give up.

I think, 

I feel,

I know….

I love you. 

“and just like that,

straight from the gut,

I knew, and I believed,

that there was a reason.

One hell of a reason why I couldn’t seem to look away.

As if I was staring at something that

could change my life for good.

heck, change it for the better.

Something that I couldn’t allow to slip away.”

““A cold night.

An unlikely feast,

A random gathering.

And there I was,

Having some sort of a psywar,

If I should stare blankly into space,

or stare,

at that pretty face.

Thinking if

something good.

could actually happen.

As I free-fall into the unknown,

I can’t help, 

but generate thoughts, 

of you,

free-falling with me too.

Because some things are better,

when they are left unsaid.

Because some things are better, 

locked up in our heads.

Oh well.

Time will tell.

It’ll always tell.”

Now that my summer’s officially starting, I will now make a random play by play (lol whatver you call it) on how this semester turned out to be.

NOVEMBER: There I was, being determined. Determined in turning things around, and actually planning to weave the threads of this semester into something that could actually please my ego and the ego of others (my mom and, the people who have been doubting me all these years.) So yeah, a spark of confidence, here and there, and I am indeed overjoyed that things were actually going well as planned. (In the academic level of course)

Though I was showing awesomesauce results in the realm of academics, I’ve been,(wait) “we’ve” been screwing up, even in the most obvious aspects this so called special bond has to offer. Which isn’t nice, and I secretly wish for this adhesive shitload of a bond to dissipate because I feel that I’m not benefiting from anything. (Practially speaking)

DECEMBER: I’ve learned to choose and decide on the right things to do, and act upon the right instincts that thwart my system, and with that, I have balanced the realm of emotional bullcrap and my oh so goodie goodie academic standing (failed one quiz though, but still. No time to dwell on that. AINT NOBODY GOT TIME FOR THAT)

JANUARY: I have opened my doors to some things. Things that bring specs of joy, and things that actually make their way in my involuntary caridac muscle, and my brain of course. Things, that are probabbly worth getting.

FEBRUARY: YO TO THE LO

MARCH: We all have to find/ tend to find the things that are quite odd, unexpected, yet still manage to reach our innermost thoughts and innermost psyche that could actually drive us to do the good kind of unexpected motives, and all that. We have to find the right things that drive us to think,and act better whatever happens.The things that are worth fighting for…

So let us all fight like hell, for these things don’t come easily. 

Would you even let things like that pass, and drift away?

I know I won’t.